Wednesday, 28 May 2008

• sigh...want to keep a distance but it's gonna hurt ppl

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  okay right....typing this post is gonna be hard....- -''
  there no other place i want to share my feeling than in xanga....why? i dont know...ppl are gonna read it. even ppl who im about to talk about WOULD....seems like im putting myself in danger at the moment......

  whatever....IT IS hard to take someone as a Friend when u dont consider them as important as they do (?) does it make sence?! I guess it's just similar to LOVE, u need time to see if he/she will be The One who u're gonna spend a life time with. Friends, I admit that I could easily become friends with ppl QUITE easily if their active enough which I kinda thank them for being the active one...BUT that's the problem...when it gets deeper...it's hard to get out...on a Short-term cause, it might seem like a pretty amazing friendship but when it comes to Long-term...it changes all of a sudden, I didnt expect it to happen...this kinda frienship isnt what I've expected...im suffocated...or worse...SUFFERING from this particular friendship...! it's gonna have to be My Problem...it's been like this for the past 2 or 3 years, annoyed by ppl easily that i just want to ignore them if possible. THAT's when the relationship changes. I dont see them as important as they do to me; I dont see them the way I see friends who I really take them as Friends...sigh...why does it have to happen on me...THAT'S WHY I should learn to "say NO" and NOT F....ing trying to say YES all the time just to make them feel good BUT HELL-ish for me...I never really take the "yes-es" seriously from the bottom of my heart, leading to some bad impression for me...which I somehow dont really care about coz of how I feel about them.....

  god!!! i just hope ppl understand what im trying to say............IT's LATE!! and i want to go to bed!! gonna continue tmr if I had the mood to type......MIGHT type sth that makes more sence and easier to understand BLAABLAABLAAA~~night!

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